We are all fucked up right now huh!? Not a one of us can make sense of anything that’s going on and we’re driving ourselves nuts trying too.
Today, after so many years it’s the number one article people are reading.
Concerning to me is that suicide is at detrimental levels and this is my most popular article.
Although, I totally get it. The confusion. The fighting. Lost jobs. Lost wages. A government that is doing absolutely nothing except taking our money, helping themselves and helping the big guys instead of it’s people.
I was laid off from a job with the most horrendous people I have ever had the displeasure of meeting and working with. Getting laid off was the best thing to happen to me. It was a blessing.
It forced me in a new direction and a new ways of thinking. I finally had a job with a great company and with people I thoroughly enjoyed working with.
Then the pandemic hit. Then, of course, lost that one.
I truly believe everything happens for a reason.
This time is totally different.
I was forced out of my apartment that I loved. I was forced to move from New York which I loved. Away from friends whom I adored and loved dearly. I was one month away from losing my life savings.
It was all too much.
My thinking and thoughts were scaring me. My thinking was totally irrational. Even more than usual.
All your “fuck it” thoughts. All your “I should just start over” thoughts. Snapping at the ones you love.
I wanted to get out of every relationship, out of the city, away from everyone and everything. I wanted silence. I hated everyone more than usual.
It’s all too much right now.
You don’t know where you’re going. You don’t know why. There are so many questions with absolutely no answers whatsoever.
No one is coming to save us. No one. We must rely on our own strength and rational thinking.
Ride it out until you’re in a better situation. Until things change and you’re in a better state of mind.
You may not end up where you want to be. God knows I’m not. But it isn’t the end. I decided that.
Don’t make a life decision when you’re in a totally lost confused state of mind.
We’re all there right now. But it will get better.
If you’re in America it may not seem like that and you might be right but….
At this point in time we don’t know what’s right. We do know what’s wrong.
Do not make moves you’ll regret. Do not deplete your life savings out of pride. Do not make the moves you do not need.
Get off social media and for crying out loud quit listening to those so called “celebrities” and douche bag “influencers”.
Work on you! Influence your damn self. Find someone positive to hang out with. If you can’t find that person. Be that person.
No one is coming to save us. No one is going to help. We must help and save our selves.
In years to come I hope you don’t look back in regret. Hope you’re not living under a bridge.
Now is the time to make smart rational decisions for your bank account, health, family, future and sanity to get you through this dark time.
Because if this pandemic has taught us anything, it’s that life is full of surprises, set backs and zero help from a system you paid into all these years that will just fuck you up.
Do something. Do it now. Do it smart. Make smart moves. Swallow your pride. You’ve got more to lose sitting on your ass doing nothing than making those moves that you know in your heart are in your best interest.
I stumbled upon Elle’s site as I was writing this. I got the quote from her page on hope. It will inspire and lift you up. All of us really need it right now. Check her page out and her story. You won’t regret it.